Thankful

I really miss these heels - Stupid dog.

No need in kicking a dead horse & telling you how much different my life was before Hawks. I feel like I've blogged that disaster way too many times, told my story too many times & depressed myself over it way too many times. Yesterday I gave advice to someone who is most likely headed down that same toxic path & well, you learn better from your own mistakes than you do from the mistakes of others in my honest opinion and she will just have to learn on her own.

So like I started to say, I'm not going to go into all that...

Instead I'd like to say that I may not always show it but I am truly thankful for my life now. It's not always rainbows & butterflies but I know that Hawks & I have proven, and continue to prove that we can handle anything thrown at us - together. I've had to grow up a lot over the past 3 years and I'm sure that it was hard for everyone involved. [ I love you Mom.] The point is that I think I've finally become the person that not only my kids can be proud of, but I can be proud of too.

So yea, just a short post to say "Hey I'm thankful and life is good." That's all.

Now go away. That's enough mush for today.

It’s been… a journey.

So as of tomorrow I will have officially been a Kansan for 3 years. Not only is it my 3 year anniversary of moving from Hawaii to Kansas but it’s also the 3 year anniversary of launching a real-life relationship with the love of my life, Hawks. As most stories these days go, we originally started our relationship online, in the virtual world of Secondlife. We met, hung out, fell in love and I decided that it was time to end one chapter of my life to begin another — with him.
So here I am.
More in love with him than the day I stepped off a plane into the unknown.
Thankful for him, everything we have & the things we still have to look forward to. (Though I know that I don’t show it nearly as much as I should).
*enter the mush*

Dearest Hawks -
You have been my rock, when I needed stability. You’ve been soft, when I’ve needed hugs & comfort. You’ve been my comic relief on bad days when I needed a smile. You’ve been my best friend, when I’ve felt alone. You’ve been my logic, when mine has flown the coop. You’ve been everything that I’ve needed when I’ve needed it and I just hope that I’ve done the same for you. We may have had our ups as well as our downs but I love you and there isn’t anyone I’d rather stumble through life with. Here’s to our future…
Love For Always & Forever,
Happy Anniversary my heart…
Your Jells <3